It's not about my day or what happened. It's about what I feel. There's nothing interesting about what happen to me (for me). I'm just an ordinary girl that try to change the word 'typical' word to 'extraordinary'. The girl who is riddled with flaws.
Sometimes, it's better to show your flaws to your dream guy, and make your flaws as a good thing. I mean, not stupid flaws. I mean, flaws. You know, what you naturally have and you just can't help it. I'm not good at hiding my flaws.
And I did try to hide my flaws. Sometimes, I don't even know what are my flaws. But doesn't mean I think I'm flawless or "perfect". I mean, I don't know. I'm kinda crazy, you know, the way I behave. But I make it like I'm cool because I just can't help it. I can't help from being cynical. I can't help from being "crazy". I can't help from having mistake in my grammar. (did I say it right?) I DID TRY TO GET MY PIMPLE HELL OUT OF MY FACE. I can't help from... saying bad words. Okay, that, I will try to not say any bad words. Chill. I can't help from not be a good friend. I try to be a good friend but sometimes, I can't. And I don't know if you think I'm a good friend or not. I can't help from being an annoying
And I don't have any true friends. I wish I could have... a real best friend that I can count on. The one that always with me. But I don't have that kind of best friend. I have a best friend... like just... a close friend.
I'm kind of coward. I shut my eyes when watch horror movie -,-'. (why the hell there's a freaking red line when I type 'movie'? What the hell's wrong with the spelling?!) I'm kind of paranoid. But my fear to dark decrease a bit (how's my English? I just hentam the words.). Whenever I want to avoid midnight, I will sing at night. I sing when I'm afraid. I pray (PLEASE don't sing Bieber's 'Pray' I'm begging you.) and istighfar. Because I'm kind of... coward? But I'm glad I'm not as weak as I was years ago. When I got left, I'll cry. Small matter - cry. I was a damn weakling! But I can't blame myself for that.
Oh. Yes. I did say sometimes it's better to show flaws to dream guy, right? Right. I faced my crush (not any more, I.. I over him, I guess) every day, and I tried to... not to laugh like insane or say stupid stuffs. Or mess around. But guess what? I DID. I couldn't help it. But I'm touched when guys likes me even they've seen bad side of me. :P That's a good friend. Just a friend. No, best friend. :) (eeee, you're so gedik one =_=q Can you just be like Kat Stratford? No, no, no, be YOU! Be... Najla, the awesome :p) Some stop liking me after seen my... flaws? Aha, don't care. I'm just being myself. I was being evil because... they just annoying, no offence. Sorry. CAN'T HELP IT! :D
Whatever. Blaaaaah, what the hell's with me? Talking about flaws? Because I know I'm not flawless. I loooove imperfections. IMPERFECTIONS COOOOOOOOL. AWESOME! :D Like Barney Stinson! HAH! DING! xD
Okay, Kaitlyn talks end. Thankies! For reading the WHOLE thing. If you didn't read the whole thing, you don't deserve my thanks. MUAHAHAHAHAHA.
PS: Tyra Banks right. Perfect is boring. I mean, if that person just... too perfect. Without any flaws, it's just so boring, everything on him/her just so perfect. No way. Uh'uh. Make your flaws cool. But don't forget to fix your.... stupid flaw? Learn from your mistake. Remember Kaitlyn Duchannes, make it impossible to forget Najla Nadhirah.
Beautiful imperfection,
♥ Kaitlyn Duchannes
