Is there no any time machine so I can go back to the old days when I feel so happy. When nothing's wrong. When I still have my real best friends. When I have fun all the time. When me and my mum's bond are still tight. When I was such a princess. When I don't meet those people who keep on ruining my life, spoiling my mood. No?
You see, life sucks. Life's unfair. BUT IT'S A TEST. And I'm so weak. Why is this happening to me? Oh wait, there are people who has much worse than mine. People who say they have the worse problem are the stupidest and weakest ever. Can't they fucking imagine other people's life who has much bad crisis than they have? I'm pissed with these people. They're such spoiled brat and attention seeker, and... having PMS I guess.
They should know, that Allah is testing them, so they can always remember Allah. Allah S.W.T.
And yeah, maybe no one knows how do they feel. But do they know how people with much worse problem feels? And every people is tested based on their ability. Their strength.
Me? I don't know if I'm strong. I'm weak. Coward. Selfish. Hate myself for that.
Emotional breakdown. Insecurities. Jealousy. Anger. Heartbroken.
Those are like some of the worse thing.
Everything we do, we'll be judged! And sikit-sikit "attention seeker". Lol dude, you suck..... There are obvious attention seeker. But if some who's just confess what they feels is called 'attention seeker', or whatever they do, people labeled it trying to seek attention, is immature.
If it's obvious like "Single and available. Feel so lonely..." "I'm bored... Who wants to talk to me, IM me or call me!" "I want to deactivate. Ok no one cares..." "I'm not as hot as you!" or etc, then, yes, maybe.
But if like when we say "I'm ugly." people will say we're trying to make everyone praise us and when we say "I'm pretty! I'm hot!" people will say we're flattered... Sheeeeeeeeesh, judgmental everywhere. And when we say "I'm not as pretty/handsome/hot as you" people will thought like "Lol attention seeker".
Better say nothing like that.
Well, in my opinion, everyone are seeking attention, even without they even realized. Because what? So many observer who are so observant on anything and will judge. And we'll be trolled/bashed/being humiliated/people talk bad about us. That's why freakin haters exist.
Although I never believe I have haters. Not that I feel like I'm lovable, I don't like thinking about hater.
Even our best friends can be our hater. Even our haters can be our best friends. How ironic.
And maybe people thought I'm an attention seeker. Whatever.
And I noticed something.... People who are known by many people, or "hot" or famous or whatever you call, has a lot haters. I guess being famous has it's price. That's why I'm more comfortable on being "nobody". There.... maybe some of you are thinking I'm seeking attention here. Or think I lied and actually wants to be famous. No, go away judgmental.
That's why I'm comfortable writing here. I have less followers here.
7AM I really need to hit the sack right now. Bye :*
