Sometimes I wish I die. NO I SHOULD BE GRATEFUL. It's just so.... ugh. what am I saying?
My heart really aches and I really need to scream to spill out everything like wtfuq. I feel like I'm the most hypocrite girl - sometimes. Fake words, fake smile, fake craziness, fake laugh, fake fake fake fake fake fake fake fake fake fake fake. And if I tell everyone it's like I'm asking for sympathetic. HELLO?! D'OH!
I don't want live in this house. I can get out of here like whatever. Couple of years later yada yada yada. I'll find my own money.
K. What am I thinking? Hell of me.
I cried every single night because of one thing and then suddenly painful flashbacks about everything and then I cry more and more and more. I HATE TO SAY THIS BUT UGH DAMN ME DAMN ME SAY THAT YOU HATE ME~ -.-'
I cry every night about everything and everyone will never understands. And maybe because of you who read this. But don't be too sensitive much.
It's fasting month, maybe Allah wants to test me. AND I FEEL LIKE I FAILED. I'm lack of patience. I'm lack of strength. I'm such a weakling and I hate it. I can't stand anymore. No no no.
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I AM SUCH A TROUBLE GIRL. I SUCK. OH HEY, LOOK ABOVE, I THINK I JUST TYPED FXCK WITHOUT ME EVEN NOTICE OMG OMG OMG I AM SO FANTASTIC.
